Once

Once every now and then you have a moment. A fraction of time when the chaotic moments of your life seem to come together and make some sense.

 

These moments can be of a deep personal nature. They can be reflections of current or past relationships. They can be driven by the hope of a deeper spiritual meaning in life.

 

It seems if you do not act upon the moment when it comes to you they are lost, those pieces continue to move like gears in a vast complicated clock. Somewhere they will come together again but who knows after how long.

 

I lose almost all of these moments

 

I have never thought of myself as afraid of anything but perhaps that is because I am afraid of everything. These moments of clarity always seem to carry a price. Some token fee that I can not seem to pay.

 

After time these lost moments weight on my soul. They seam like weakness.

 

It seams these prayers are dedicated to those lost moments.